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If ever there was another word for leaving, I’d use that instead of goodbye. I hate goodbyes; I really don’t like feeling sad. In fact I don’t like to be sad; I don’t want to be lonely. Maybe that’s why I surround myself with people, to entertain myself, to keep me busy, to keep me active so as to forget that I’m totally alone.

It was already dark; the chairs are all still there aligned in front of the stage. All the other people left. I was there alone; I took a chair and sat. Thoughts filled my mind; I was thinking what will happen next. What will I do? What should I do? I was there, still sitting on that chair. It was just after my graduation in high school. I didn’t leave yet; I stayed there and contemplate on what I should do next. I was without plans, purpose, or goal. I looked up to the sky, it was filled with stars, I was lucky it wasn’t going to rain. Before it turned night on that day, I’ve already said goodbye to my high school friends, my buddies, my barkada’s, my classmates for more than four years, even my high school crush. I wished that someday I would see them again. I can still remember it was one of the saddest moments in my life. It’s the first one actually. How I wish I wouldn’t feel that way again.

When I was still at UST, studying Pharmacy, even for just a few months of my stay there I found friends. Friends who are worth keeping and trusting, as I don’t trust people that easily. But on my last day there, I didn’t even said goodbye. I packed my bags, emptied my dorm room shelves, and left. I left them without saying a word or even showing up to them. I just needed to get out of there; one main reason is that I don’t like what I’m doing there. I don’t like my course, and another reason is that… [spoiler removed]

Anyway, I’m beginning to adapt a not-staying-at-one-place-for-a-long-time attitude. I kept on moving, changing places. I’ve met a lot of people in my lifetime, but not all of them I can call my friends. I’m not a trusting person; I don’t trust all the people except the ones I know very well. It seems that if I stay in one place for a longer time and get attached to the people there, it’s even harder to say goodbye to them. And that goes for my recent job. I just don’t know why I didn’t said goodbye to them in person. It’s only been 6 and a-half months, but I felt that I’ve known them for a long time. I just left them an email message and took off.

I just don’t want to feel sad that’s all. I was afraid that saying goodbye to them in person would… never mind… anyway what’s done is done… time to move on… but I won’t forget them, the persons that I can truly call my friends. So if you’re reading this, remember that I won’t forget any of you. And that even if my mind forgets, my heart will always remember. CORNY!!! Hahaha

At bakit nagkataon na emo pa yung background music ko…

Category: Random Rants by Ryman
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Last Saturday night, while my girlfriend and I were having dinner, it just popped up in my head. I didn’t know or what inclined me to decide right there and then, but I asked her if she wants to go to Enchanted Kingdom the next day (Sunday, June 10). She just laughed and asked me, “Are you serious?” “Yup”, I replied. With no plans whatsoever and its already late at night, we decided to go just for the fun of it.

The next day we arrived at our destination with a couple minutes to spare before the park opens. Here are a couple of highlights that happened in our spontaneous trip.

(1) We were so early to arrive at Makati that the guy that sells the transportation tickets was not there. I was surprised that there was no one there; I thought it was the end of our trip.

(2) The minute we got inside, my girlfriend went to the comfort room, and then we went to get a locker. After leaving some of our things, she rode the Grand Carousel as I was outside taking photos and videos of her. After that we rode the Bump Cars, then the small roller coaster that look like skates. Déjà vu anyone?

(3) On the first half of the day there were a lot of people wearing red-colored clothing (same as mine). And on the later half of the day, there were a lot of them wearing green-colored clothes (same as my girlfriend). We even saw a few ‘couples’ that were wearing the same color combination as we were. Freaky!

(4) Our order at lunch got delayed because the number we got was 76 and the lady at the cashier typed 79 on our receipt.

(5) There was these two gay that ‘seems’ to follow us at the Realto section of Enchanted Kingdom. The whole story on the next entry.

(6) The stall that I bought a squid balls meal was missing, and so were the other stalls. Freaky!

(7) My girlfriend was completely drenched at Rio Grande Rapids, while I was dry as a duck. I keep telling her it’s just random, or luck was at my side.

(8) There was this commotion that happened at the entrance of the park. It seems that there are two families fighting. Most of the crowed gathered around them to see what’s happening, while some were busy taking photos beside the wizard at the front gate. We were also taking the opportunity to take photos beside the wizard, as most people were gathered near the commotion.

I’ll tell the story in more detail on my next entry.

It’s midnight, my girlfriend is already fast asleep on my bed, and I’m also tired and sleepy. I’d better head over there to keep her warm…

Nyt ^_^

Category: Random Rants by Ryman
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These past few days (or maybe weeks) I noticed that the nights are getting longer. Many reasons would come to mind, here are two:

(1) I’m on a permanent graveyard shift at work. Since that time when our superior told us that there will be no more morning or mid shifts, reality bites, and it bites hard. I’m on a call center and the nature of the company is awake in the night and sleeping on daylight. When I started applying for work around 3 years ago, I was hesitant to take a job in a call center. One main reason is that I can’t work at night, or my body won’t allow it. I know, I should not be picky on where or when to work, when there are so many people out there looking for a job. I mean hey, there are so many jobless people, but unlike most of them, I don’t have any initiative to work. Well… at least not yet… I have to admit, one of my faults is that I’m typically lazy. Well not totally lazy, when I have “important” responsibilities, I get to work on it and I “have to” get the job done, if it really requires it. So there, I don’t like to become a nocturnal-type of person.

(2) At home, I’m having trouble sleeping, again. Maybe it’s my insomnia kicking me in the brain. Damn, if this keeps on going I’m going to have a lot of trouble in my life. Lack of sleep for me is not advisable, why? Because I’m irritable when I don’t get enough sleep plus the fact that I’m light headed. I’m a low-blood type of person. I get dizzy easily when I don’t sleep properly and on time (hint: I’m having trouble adjusting my body clock). My girlfriend (even my mom) knows that, so they tend not to wake me up when they know that I’m tired and sleepy. Like that old pinoy saying: “Burautin mo na ang taong lasing, wag lang ang bagong gising” hahaha.

Category: Random Rants by Ryman
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