Avoiding
Last Saturday night I was at SM City Fairview looking for a place to eat dinner. While I was strolling along the food court, I received a text message from Joanne. She said that she’s waiting at our ‘usual’ meeting place, back when we were still together, and that she would wait for me there for one whole hour. I knew that she used Smart’s ‘friend finder’ that’s why she knew I was at the mall at that time. I didn’t want to reply to her but I also don’t want her to be waiting there, so I replied back. I told her that I’m not going to see her and that we don’t have anything to talk about. I also told her that it’s useless to wait for me as I was not going there anyway.
I found a place to eat. I switched my phone to silent so that I won’t be disturbed by the constant beeping noise due to the numerous text messages from her. Half way through my dinner, I checked on my phone. There were a couple of text messages, and eleven missed calls. She was persistent, but I didn’t mind it. After I finished eating, I went immediately to the mall’s exit. I took a different route and a different ride home, just so I wouldn’t bump on her or something. Coz both our destination and route are the same as when we were going home. After I got back home, I checked my phone. Again, a couple of text messages and more than a dozen missed calls.
Sunday morning. My phone was full of text messages; one of them caught my attention. She said that she already has a boyfriend. She didn’t tell me, but they were together since March 8. She also told me that they are planning on living together. She still loves me, that’s what she said. And she still wants for us to get back together. I don’t know what to say. I was there, still lying on my bed, reading the message. I know that I’m happy for her that she got a new boyfriend. I replied to the message. I told her only this, that I would accept her invitation for us to see each other again. But I also said that when we meet, that will be the last time she would ever see me. She replied back, she said that she didn’t want to hear what I have to say. She was afraid that I will tell her that it’s really over and that there’s no chance that we could be together again.
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History is repeating again, I should know. That’s almost the same as what I’ve told Rizza (my 8th ex-gf), the day before we broke up. I told her that the next time we meet; it would be the last time. The day of our ‘official’ breakup, was almost like any other day for us. I’ve waited for her at our usual meeting place, Robinson’s Galleria. We had our lunch, we talked. It was both a happy and a sad day for the two of us. As I took the bus going back home, she joined me. She asked me then and there if she could hug me one last time. Of course, I said. After that short and warm hug, she stood up and got off the bus. I knew, before she stepped out of the bus, she was crying.
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The last of Joanne’s text message says that when the time comes that we see each other again, for our last meeting; she wants it to be one whole day for only the two of us. I agreed.
Damn. When I remember that flashback, my heart beats irregularly. I have to admit that one of my ‘many’ big mistakes was letting go of Rizza. Will I make the same mistake again?
hahaha. i just read this entry! hahaha. you should read mine! makakarelate ka.=) i was supposed to post it last Sunday pa. i just keep on forgetting.:P