Communication
The moment I enter my room, the first thing I do is open my computer and let it connect to the internet. We only have a dial-up connection (thanks to the super slow PLDT DSL service which we were waiting for these past few years!!!) that means when I’m connected, the phone line is busy. The only time I disconnect is when I’m going to use the phone, or run a program that consumes a lot of memory resources, or when I’m not home. In short, no one can call me at home if I’m not expecting their call.
Fate, it seems, has a way of doing things unexpected. Last night, I need to disconnect because I have to burn tons of files into a blank DVD. When ‘burning’ to a blank CD/DVD your process must not be interrupted or else the files will get corrupted. Anyway as I finished recording my files, I was about to connect when suddenly my phone rang. I’m not expecting a call from anyone so I hesitated to pick up the phone. After a few rings, I decided to pick it up to know who it was. I was hoping it would be a wrong number, but fate decided someone else. It was Joanne. As luck would have it, she got through to my “always busy” phone line. I really didn’t expect her to call after all these months.
She asked how I’ve been, how’s my work, if I already have a girlfriend, if I’m still doing fine, about my health. I’m not sure but from the tone of her voice she’s somewhat happy now. The whole conversation was about me, she asked so many questions, just so she can catch up on what I’ve been doing these past few months. The only question I can ask her is how she’s handling her new work. I never did ask any personal question about her. We talked for almost half an hour.
It’s good to hear that she’s happy with her life right now. It’s what I’ve always wanted for her, to be happy. Even if our relationship didn’t work out, I still consider her as my friend. We’ve been through a lot since she became my friend, until the day we had our separate ways. Only a few people know who I really am, and she’s one of them, for she has known me for more than 6 years.
A couple of months ago, our conversation ended with me telling her that we have to cut our lines of communication. It’s for the both of us, for one cannot move forward unless he or she is still tied to the past. I know it’s hard, but it’s the only option we have. Now I have the more reason to change my mobile number as well as my landline. I just hope she doesn’t PM me on any online community I’m registered. Oh wait she already did, just last week, but I didn’t replied.
I just hope she understand that I’m not only doing this for myself, but for her as well.
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